“What is right about this I am not getting?”
This must be one of my favorite questions to ask myself constantly about me, about this, about that….. Have you ever had one of those days that no matter what questions you ask or what you do short of sticking a firecracker up your sweet behind, there is no changing it?
How many times have you made yourself wrong, and used force to get things done, to finish tasks, to go against the flow. Instead what if you could just enjoy a slow day to smell the roses, to enjoy and have gratitude for everything the universe is gifting you?
Today, I had a day of no driving urgency to do anything, one might say it was all wrong.
The beauty about being an entrepreneur is you get to choose how you create your day.
Abundance is not measured by money alone, it is far more than that. It is the willingness to receive something different in every minute without any judgment of game plans and deadlines and have gratitude in all of it.
Having said that, I am sure you relate to how often you make yourself wrong for being your own North star. I remember the first time I ever had my Bars™ run,
What is right about this I am not getting?
I knew it did not belong to me and even when I returned it to sender a couple of godzillion times ( that is a number so big only God knows it) I could not shake it off. After all we are all way more psychic than we give ourselves credit for and Monday’s in suburbia are always a little dense. Most people here are back to work, private schools opened and it was like the whole neighborhood was groaning with the energy of “oh no, do I have to get out of bed? Oh no, another year of slogging it out doing what i hate to make ends meet” and so on. The energy was thick with all the projections and expectations and I sensed it, my body showed it to me and I bought it as mine until that first blissful cup of coffee from my beautiful italian espresso maker. Ahhh then the gratitude slipped back in to my reality!
What is right about this I am not getting? I had a day of no clients in clinic, a day to up the ante on some of those future projects, time to catch up, to reflect! How does it get even better than that ?
It took me up until noon when I fetched my child from school – (more density and heat of 34 degree celcius) to realize how intentionally obtuse I was being! It was old programs I bought from my mother that to do nothing is tantamount to laziness and Money does not fall from trees – that one was my fathers, love you dad!
You see knowing all of this, having the tools and being in the energy of question, possibility and choice and living it can very easily take the gratitude and joy right out of you in a heartbeat. It is all those background programs running, the monkey mind, the insanity of buying it as mine that had me asking what is right about this I am not getting? and stopped my living. I was using force against my knowing when my body was saying, oh lets go walk the dogs, lets have a quiet read, lets just receive from the sun and take a nap.
I can be pretty stubborn and a really self judgmental cow to me at times – what do I love about punishing me?! I kept pushing, measuring myself against what I had not implemented, not done what I said I would, punishing myself for not achieving what I had in mind to do.
What is right about that I am not getting?
There in lies the problem – I was literally in a mind f**k. My brilliant body was on a go slow, it was not having any of it and still I pushed, buying more and more into this contextual reality and all the goals and demands being set probably in every business meeting going on in the city and beyond as mine. Again I asked “who does this belong to? What is right about this I am not getting? Take a chill pill, have some fun, lighten up and smell the roses!!” The magic of living in the present and asking questions is that is when the downloads come, the ahas that moves you in to greatness and expansiveness. Not going against your awareness.
The moment I acknowledged and owned that I had every distractor implant ( distractors are all the thoughts, feelings ad emotions that take us out of being present now to create our future) out there running and destroyed and uncreated them all, I could step back in to choice and chose to just be!
I eased Thalia my 6 year old, in to the fun of her homework, we spoke to her Granny about all the amazing things we would do and see when we visit her next and we laughed and splashed in the most beautiful cool water of the pool for the rest of the day. Gratitude eliminates all the uneasiness, the judgments, the should haves.
So the next time you find yourself having an ansty moment, ask yourself what is right about this I am not getting? and take a breath of the sweet fragrant air and embrace knowing everything is choice, even happiness and choose more of that !
I am going to gift my body some restorative, generative sleep early tonight because I can!
I wonder what fun, expansive adventures you will have tomorrow?