What to do when you want to give up on your dreams.
As the final weeks and days of this first quarter of the year have come and gone, I’m reminded of the ways that these first 3 months has pushed me backwards, pulled me forwards, lifted me up and dropped me to within an centimeter of the floor where several times I’ve hung suspended in mid air, feeling out of sorts, steeped in a major transition within myself, my life and my business.
When I think back to 2014, I realize that it was most definitely a year of tremendous change, uncomfortable transition, letting go, grieving, vacillating between “poor me” and “empowered and free.” A year where I was given (and took) opportunity upon opportunity to step way outside of my comfort zone, put myself out into the world in bigger, bolder and more visible ways, and show up again and again in the face of fear, extreme discomfort, wanting to say “fuck it all” and just give up.
For the first time in years I cursed the Universe, not once or twice, but several times. I found myself asking, screaming, crying, ‘Why?!! WHY ME?!!’ when no matter what I did to disappear the tumor in the back of head nothing changed ……
and then humbly asking for forgiveness as I turned my gaze inward and grappled with why I’ve been co-creating an experience that felt so challenging and soul breaking.
This eternal optimist was wavering… and it freaked me out.
The old stories danced with the new, and every time I felt like throwing in the towel I would hear a little voice within encouraging me to “Keep Going!”
It was as if the Earth herself, Angels, my Animal Guides and Ancestors were not only asking me to trust on deeper levels than I had before, but they were also showing me in my darkest moments that they were still here, by my side, and I wasn’t alone. They hadn’t abandoned me for a greater mission (thank Goddess!), they were just asking me to play a bigger game and take a more powerful stand in myself and for the animals, the plants and the world.
With more asking, investment in mentors, life experience, wisdom, education, training, a track record of success and more confidence to kick my own arse like never before not as an entrepreneur but as an inter-preneur, I found myself navigating through one of the craziest roller coaster up and down financial years I’ve had in a long time
…..and an quiet inner voice encouraging me to*Keep Going Don’t give up!*
Clients of mine had several multiple six-figure proposals on the table that disintegrated into thin air, dynamic meetings with prospects that I was sure to close went away and after my most lucrative year in 2013, I learned for the first time in my adult life how to trust that I was completely supported and ENOUGH, as I struggled to problem solve around water cuts and hours of sitting in the dark when the power went off due to load shedding and a constant state of low grade stress as crime in my area went up and the collective consciousness was one of despair, discontent and victimhood that really took a huge toll on my physical body and my psyche.
……and an quiet inner voice encouraging me to*Keep Going!**Keep Going!* Don’t give up!
What I realized was happening, was that space was being created in my busy life so that I could take action on projects, movements and opportunities that I’d been putting off for years.
I started painting again and taking time to channel more information by creating sacred quiet space and running again. After painting and judging and writing the downloads and judging and hearing the mean inner voice of ego telling me to stop slacking and do some real work I heard that voice again saying *Keep Going – don’t give up, you can do this!*
I finally got my Bones and Raw food book “Paws for Raw – Whole food for happy pets” released on Barnes and Noble with the help of my amazing friend Rheba and I found myself feeling frustrated and disappointed at what seemed like a lack of support from my tribe in its launch. Two months after the book released I hit a wall, felt depressed, unmotivated and wanted to give up! And there was that voice *Keep Going! Don’t give up*
I poured my heart and soul into a collaborative community project , that was birthed out of my desire to make a difference in a grass roots start up and had the potential to change so many lives of people and animals in South Africa and was left carrying the load while the other partners did not do what they said they would do and it all seemed to fall flat. I felt exhausted, defeated, and found myself caught up in an illusion that people didn’t care, and that the vision wasn’t supported. As the tears streamed down my face, I heard that voice *Keep Going! Don’t give up*
This guided exercise will assist you in staying present and focused when things get crazy
There was an edge to this first quarter of the year that shook me to the core, had me thinking about my current life in very old ways – pattern repeats. I’d reached another level of clearing out the old stories and beliefs that are the only thing standing between me and the life I’ve been imagining – my legacy to make a difference no matter what it takes.
When I look back, 2014 and the first quarter of 2015 have been the year of remembering who I am here to be, not learning.
Here are 10 things I remembered as I held this new mantra, *Keep Going, don’t give up, you are more than enough* close to my heart:
- It’s always darkest before the dawn
- Things aren’t always as they seem (and that’s a good thing!)
- When things don’t go your way, it’s most likely a blessing
- I actually DO know and can trust my intuition and inner knowing
- The Universe is most certainly conspiring on my behalf no matter WHAT my monkey mind wants to tell me
- Progress NOT perfection
- Not everyone is going to like you or your work
- Change is inevitable, embrace it
- Let go gracefully
- Taking things personally is like an energy vampire to the soul, it sucks all good things out of you!
What were some of the powerful reminders you received in 2014 and beyond in to the first quarter of 2015?
What made you want to give up?
And why did you choose to keep going?!
I believe in you, I believe in me, I believe in the powers of seen and unseen.
Will you join me?!
What is the living legacy you are creating?
Don’t give up, keep going and know you are more than enough!
In fact you are miraculous Goddess – keep going, the world is waiting for you.
Love in abundance and the HIGHEST blessings for what this next quarter brings to you -with ease, grace, strength, more health, happiness, prosperity, love and an abundance of all amazing magical Diamond brilliant coming your way.
Your Co-Creative Diamond Si/star,
Sarah-Jane Diamond is a multi sensory intuitive mentor and holistic lifestyle success strategist who specializes in connecting women and a few great men ,ready to ROAR with their wild animal within and transform personal pain into power and possibilities and own their true divine nature as their birthright so that they can track their life purpose, do what they love, have financial freedom and make a positive impact on the world being who they came here to be. You too can use the power of your stories of struggle and challenges – your phD of life experiences and transform them into your unique body of work, inspire others to thrive and create a sustainable planet.
She co-teaches with Animas, through the Access Your True Nature Systems™ a profound transformational process using animal archetypes and cutting edge energy medicine and verbal clearings to help her clients to move through the disease of debilitating fears, self judgment, abuse and trauma and into the bold, courageous warrior power of lioness with authentic confidence. She believes that when you give yourself permission to know your NO then you can say YES to live free in your true divine nature, you can have abundance, love the life and skin you are in and empower others to shine too.