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In Praise of Women

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by Danielle La Porte

I often hear “women are our own worst enemies” in terms of our culture. I’m tired of that argument. I think everyone is their own worst enemy, and I don’t think it’s about something women have specifically against each other.

The uh, broadness, of my experience with the women throughout my life leaves me humble, optimistic, proud, and grateful. I’ve been screwed over by females in business and love, and I’ve planted a few landmines myself. But those enemy-making times were the results of bumbling, struggling humanness, not ovaries or hormones. We could argue the bio-instincts to procreate, protect and feed that spurs some nasty behavior from chicks, or about Queen Bees and Wanna-Bees — all very real social dynamics, but I’m here to give witness to the force of pure Goddess positivity that is the hallmark of my life. Word.

I love when having a dose of strong medicine opens up new dialogue and enquiry.

As women Danielle La Portes post I just saw made me smile as she spoke of how we as women push
Push out babies, push out creations, push out truths and push out support into the world

It’s innately within our womb an space to push so stop denying being too pushy and share your voice unapologetically.

And I am reminded again and again how walking the spiral path of ones true calling requires a constant state of death, birth and renewal over and over again.

That as women when we can hold a space to be in the presence of women on a mission we can love the parts illuminated and the parts in the dark as equally memorable and see the power in the cycles of death and rebirth together and let’s push a kinder more connected, beneficent presence out into the ether and the earth

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Remember we are all in this together. Whether we like it or not our friends are going through the experience of life on Earth just the same way that we are, just as our family has, just as our enemies do.

This thing of being human is Mary Magdeleine, Kali, dragon breath, creator and destroyer and when we can see the potential of all things as equal, true change begins that puts into motion a collective bigger than us all.

We are all in this together, the agony and ecstasy of BEING human.

What would happen if we acted and actioned all of it ??

Creator and destroyer ??

I wonder, what is one action you could take today to support our inter connectedness

The fragility and potency of this thing called human Beingness?

Tell me about it and let’s do this thing together

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MY LIVED EXPERIENCE IS THAT WOMEN SIMPLY ADORE WOMEN:

Women shake their cosmic pom poms. Go sister go! How many times has a girlfriend told you, that you got it going on, before you head out the door or the dressing room? That even though your new haircut makes you look like a mushroom, your ass looks grrreat. They’ll be looking at your ass all night, not your hair. Really, you’re hot. Just keep your hat on and don’t sit downGo get ‘em.

A woman makes a cup of her heart. She carries your concerns and fears with you, for you. When your eyes fill up with teary news, so do hers. It happens with women you’ve known for years, with women you just met at the grocery store, in the ladies room, in a prayer circle. She carries your story with her. She mixes honey with it and re-tells it to you and helps you notice how great you’re doing, in spite of everything, because of everything.

Women bare their fangs for you. Like when Tammy threatened to butt her cigarette out between buddy’s eyebrows if he didn’t leave us alone. He walked, we rocked.

Women feed each other – literally and figuratively.  Think of all the meetings or retreats you’ve been to. Who brings the cocoa and sparkling water? Who remembers that you’re lactose intolerant? Who asks you if you have everything you need?

A woman will sacrifice without calling it a sacrifice. Leila was three months pregnant. I was moving cross-country (again.) Road trip anyone? We U-hauled our way from Seattle to Santa Fe with Leila coughing her cookies at every truck stop. I made it to my desert home and she flew back to the coast. And named her little girl Phoebe Danielle.

Women hold on. It’s like Audrey Hepburn said, “Never throw anyone out.” It’s like my soul sister Donna says, “We’re all bozos on the same bus so just go with it.” Meep meep.

Women bypass history. A good sister listens to you bitch about the same jerk for years, she helps you pack when you’re smart enough to leave, and she stands by you when you repeat the same lesson with the next emotionally lame lover. She loves you enough to let you do it your way – again, and again, like it was the first time. No drama is too big for big women. 

A woman howls to help you remember what matters the most. She loves you enough to intervene. She will drag you out of your comfort zone and into the moonlight to say “What the fuck are you doing? You may have temporarily forgotten who you are, but I haven’t and I’m here to remind you.” Like when Karen told me over green tea, “D, maybe it’s all about the divine feminine for you, maybe that’s the question to live. It’s time to move on from playing small.” Arooooo!

Women touch you. Michelle and I went to visit a friend in the hospital recovering from surgery. Miche brought lavender lotion and massaged Friend’s feet while she lay achy and groggy. I’ll never forget that stunning moment of loving service.

Women push. Push babies out, push babies into the world. Baby ideas. Baby thought forms. Baby parts of you. “But Danielle, it’s just a thought-form that you ‘can’t take more,’” Navjit told me. “Don’t constrict. Expand.” Boundaries, pushed.

Women know how to navigate the layers because they love the layers. Folds of skin, the sediments of time, the stories that build into the present. Like how Candis not only remembers what I love but knows why I love it. She is reverent, keen, actively interested in the why of me – and that is what it means to be witnessed by a woman. Word.
All Love,

P.S. Check out my For women, women, women reading list for most posts like this one. Feminine power. Let’s talk about it. We’re all goddesses.

Share with the women you love. Press forward.

Women feed each other – literally and figuratively. 
No drama is too big for big women. 

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Two choices, dig your grave or create a life you love

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You have two choices, dig your own grave or create a life you love

Get out of the box,

the imaginary prison that keeps you paying small…..

https://www.facebook.com/farrell.sarahjane/videos/10154926489102565/

Don’t live a little, laugh and live a lot – rip snorting laughing at your own stupidity

And then get on with envisioning your life.

It’s quite simple really even though the reptilian part of your brain wants you to fight/fight or flee

And keep you alive rather than having a life.

Google can’t save you.

Here is a short but compelling list of things Google is good for:

  • Figuring out how the hell to poach a wet, floppy fish
  • Ordering purple pimp costumes to wear to dinner at your in-law’s
  • Frantically searching the correct pronunciation of the word “GIF”—before saying it out loud at your client meeting in 5 minutes

And here are things Google cannot help you with, ever:

  • Originality
  • Creativity
  • Discipline
  • Practice
  • Experience
  • Trial
  • Error
  • Finding your own fucking voice
  • …And having the guts to actually use it

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Everybody’s so busy peeking at their neighbor’s paper, trying to figure out the “correct” way to do everything. They think that if one person had success doing X, in this very particular way, then everyone must do X, in this very particular way.

But what if your neighbor is actually subpar?

Have you considered that?

Or have you taken someone else’s success at face value?

Tried to imitate it?

Do it the way they did?

Follow in their footsteps?

Why don’t you trust your own ideas?
Why don’t you trust your own voice?
Why do you always assume that the jackass down the street knows better than you?

There’s no such thing as one-size-fits all—especially in an online landscape where you’ve got to make your own rules or dig your own grave.

I guess the real question is: Do you want to be a knock off or a knock out?

One searches for inspiration. The other is busy being it.

What is the Enneagram?

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What  is  the  Enneagram?

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The  Enneagram  is  a  personality  typing  system  that  serves  as  a   powerful  gateway  to  your  inner  wisdom  and  can  shed  light  on   behaviors  which  might  be  undermining  your  ability  to  access   wholeness,  true  intimacy,  and  the  fulfillment  of  your  life’s   dreams.

 

On  my  own  journey  to  healing  from  trauma  and  depression  and   in  working  with  thousands  of  clients  to  reclaim  their  health,   happiness  and  abundance  I  discovered  that  certain  personality   traits  made  certain  people  more  prone  to  mystery  diseases  like   chronic  fatigue  and  immune  system  failure,  than  others.

 

It  seems  that  type  1  (reformers/perfectionists),  type  2  (givers),   type  3  (achievers)  and  type  6  (loyalist/anxiety  types)  are   naturally  more  pre  disposed  to  chronic  fatigue  and  auto  immune   disease.

 

I  speak  about  the  effects  of  unresolved  adverse  childhood   experiences

 

and  chronic  unpredictable  stress  a  lot,  as  it  is  a   foundational  step  of  my  work  with  root  cause  resolution  for  my   clients.

 

You  can  listen  to  a  short  introduction  to  ACE’s  here    https://soundcloud.com/sarahjanediamond/what-­are-­aces     

and  learn  what  the  impact  of  a  high  ace  score  on  your  health   can  have  over  a  lifetime  if  not  resolved.  ACEs  not  only  impact   biology,  they  also  influence  and  shape  our  personalities,  so   events  in  childhood  can  lead  us  to  become  over-­achievers,   workaholics  and  over-­givers  for  example.

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You  may  also  find  this  short  video  of  interest  on  the  impact  of   Ace’s  here:

 

 

The  good  news  is  you  can  heal  these  traumas  safely  and  gently   through  the  Access  your  True  Nature  systems.

 

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I  have  an  insatiable  thirst  for  knowledge  as  an  enneagram  type  7   and  continue  to  master  completion  and  focusing  on  just  1  thing.   It  has  taken  me  a  long  time  to  realize  that  it  is  okay  to  be    present  in  whatever  I  am  doing  now  without  going  into  the    future  even  when  I  am  very  actively  busy.

 

In  numerology  I  am  a  1,  a  leader,  a  firestarter  and    understanding  my  essence  has  been  hugely  beneficial  in   becoming  deeply  happy  rather  than  avoiding  pain.  Going   through  the  work  to  love  whom  I  am  including  the  shadow  parts   saved  me  from  myself  and  why  I  do  the  work  I  do  with  my   clients  to  access  their  own  True  divine  nature.

 

That  is  why  after  learning  everything  from  numerology,  to   Kabbalistic  numerology,  tarot,  vedic  astrology  and  every  other   type  of  profiling  available,  I  created  my  own  system  –  a  12   week  program  called  “Pathway  to  Purpose  –  living  the   illuminated  life”,  using  Mindful  change,  the  5  Element   personality  profile,

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You  can  take  my  quiz  online  here:

https://thalia.leadpages.co/5equizoptin/

 

 

Enneagram,  Meyers  Briggs  and  Spiritual  astrology  based  on    the  4  quandrants  of  my  hero  Ken  Wilbers’  work  and  Joseph   Campbell’s  Heroines  Journey.  Mixed  with  my  own  intuitive  gifts,   trauma  resolution  and  attachment  style  work,  I  help  my  clients   resolve  trauma,  heal  their  body  mind  and  live  a  fulfilled,  happy   life. It is powerful self discovery to write your own prescription – an “operating system” which will allow you to make intelligent choices about what could be most helpful in your full self-expression and ultimately your living legacy.

 

If  you  are  curious  about  how  you  too,  can  heal  from  trauma  and   find  your  gold  –  connect  to  the  essence  of  what  you  came  here   to  gift  to  the  world,  then  book  a  complimentary  CLARITY  to   health,  wealth  and  happiness  discovery  session  with  me  now.

   http://www.vcita.com/v/sarahjanediamond/online_scheduli ng?service_id=b5c4bc1f907b8cf0&staff_id=81e1a3920426f 6ce

 

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Understanding  your  Enneagram  type  is  a  tool  for  exploring   what  makes  us  tick,  what  drives  us,  and  can  help  you  identify   and  ultimately  release  behaviours  originating  from  childhood   trauma  that  are  undermining  your  health  and  well-­being  in   adulthood.

 

Type One is principled, purposeful, self-controlled, and perfectionistic.

Type Two is generous, demonstrative, people-pleasing, and possessive.

Type Three is adaptable, excelling, driven, and image-conscious. Type Four is expressive, dramatic, self-absorbed, and temperamental.

Type Five is perceptive, innovative, secretive, and isolated. Type Six is engaging, responsible, anxious, and suspicious.

Type Seven is spontaneous, versatile, acquisitive, and scattered. Type Eight is self-confident, decisive, willful, and confrontational. Type Nine is receptive, reassuring, complacent, and resigned.

 

– See more at: https://www.enneagraminstitute.com/how-the- enneagram-system-works/#sthash.qIg9hJZ7.dpuf

 

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  Curious  to  know  what  Enneagram  Type  you  are?  

  

To  complete  a  short  questionnaire  to  establish  your  Enneagram   type  and  read  and  listen  to  a  summary  of  all  the  types    https://www.enneagraminstitute.com/guide-­to-­all-­riso-­hudson-­  tests/

Ready  to  dive  into  deeper  healing  through  The  True  Nature   Systems?

Book  a  complimentary  CLARITY  to  health,  wealth  and   happiness  discovery  session  with  me  now.    

http://www.vcita.com/v/sarahjanediamond/online_scheduli ng?service_id=b5c4bc1f907b8cf0&staff_id=81e1a3920426f 6ce

 

 

The low down on the coaching industry

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The low down on the coaching industry – the good, the bad and the ugly of the coaching industry

 

There is so much good about personal mentorship and facilitation through coaching I could write a book about it. I know it would have taken me so much longer to get where I wanted to be on my own. There are so many wonderful aspects in the field of personal growth and healing…but also some of the current failings in the industry. One that has already transformed so many people’s lives including my own over the past 20 plus years and one that will continue to have a massive impact because honestly you can’t see what you need when you are under a dark cloud of doubt and fear. It’s also a young industry – in its teenage years, if you will. And teenagers make mistakes. Teenagers go through growing pains. Teenagers need to see the bigger picture.

 

And I want you to see the bigger picture, too!

So that you can continue to live from the heart, trust in your innate wisdom and gifts and to grow into yourself.

Let me know what you think!

 

 

I have had some heated discussions with my peers on how we can contribute to change the pieces we don’t like about our industry and the movement back to heart based business is growing.

That was the driving force behind my global summit “Courageous, Confident, Inspired Women” where I interviewed over 27 change agents around the world doing business their way from kindness and generosity and heart.

 

More and more women who come to me start by saying they don’t really trust the coaching industry. They share that the marketing they see feels really glitzy and sales-y, as if celebrity coaches are inflating what’s possible as well as what’s really happening in their own business.

 

They tell me they’re scared of needing to have “Hell Yeah” attitudes in order to succeed, or being inauthentic in order to attract clients. They also admit that they feel pressure to spend what feels like a Godzillion ( a number so big only God knows) dollars in order to receive “formulas” that they sense aren’t really a fit for them.

 

Hearing all this pisses me off enough to do business differently.

Because I know that there are some not-so-pretty things happening in this industry that I really get triggered by. And I also know that those not-so-pretty things are damaging women, causing more trauma and holding the core wounding of “I am not good enough” in place more than supporting them to shine.

 

The coaching “noise” is everywhere — over social media, in your inbox, spoken from colleagues. It’s hard to know what’s the Truth and what’s your truth especialling when you are in the big BUT or comparison trap that feed a multi billion dollar industry.

 

If you’ve been part of my community, you know that over the last few years, I’ve spoken out more and more about what I call “glamour coaching”, false prophets, guru status in so called “consciousness circles” that keep you “hooked in like a cult” and feeling less than and why it is dangerous.

 

Anyone who wants you to pay them to learn meditation for examples pisses me off  Because you shouldn’t have to spend hundreds of thousands to learn to meditate or be deeply happy – you cannot meditate or tap or worse still “poc and pod” yourself into abundance or receive stellar support in your business.

 

And you shouldn’t have to feel like your sacred & unique business needs to fit into a one size fits all “formula” in order to be successful. So much of all the hype goes so against your true nature to trust what you know and be undefinable or unlimited. Been there done that one until I gave myself the middle finger and turned inwards to uncreate myself again!

 

And you shouldn’t get down on yourself because you haven’t earned 6 figures overnight.

 

Here are some insights that I hope will support you in navigating the coaching industry in an empowered, heart core way — with wisdom, confidence, intuition, and a strong sense of your ethics, integrity and authenticity.

 

I’ve created them because I believe so strongly & deeply in coaching as a tool and in the power of the coaching industry, and I want you to be able to love this field as much as I do:

 

 

Don’t believe everything you read

 

Unfortunately, not everything you read on social media is the “Truth”. There may be some facts that got “left out” from the marketing.

 

Use your gut knowing rather than judgment when you read things about people who create 6 figures in 3 months or people who work only 4 hours a week but earn 7 figures. Or people who have added 10,000 to their list in 10 days. All of those facts may (or may not) be true, but I guarantee there is more to the story than is being revealed.

Ask yourself – “Is this true?” and feel into that.

Ask your business – “who do I need to BE in order to create success on my terms?’

 

Remember that one wo/mans success may not be your definition of success.

 

For example – knowing I can be present for my daughter and work when I want is success for me. For you it may be travelling the world, free of fixed property and possessions.

 

What is your definition of success?

If money was not a necessity, what would you be doing? Where would you be living and how?

 

I have seen too many people lose their way when they make it all about the money. When you make money the driving force of your business, you kill your joy and your business.

 

Rather ask “how can I serve more? How can I lead from generosity? How can I have more money in order to support the thing I most care about? That way when you feel like throwing in the towel on your vision, the big WHY to get running water to rural communities or a safe house for women in abusive relationships or money to the Pachamama tribe to keep big oil companies from destroying the rain forests will motivate you to keep doing what you are doing!

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Make your vision BIGGER than your to do list!

Get really honest with yourself by acknowledging your selfish why to work a 4 hour week or travel the world or take 2 months off to play a year and go from there.

 

I am often told by clients that I am a truth teller, real, raw and authentic. I believe this is one of the reasons why my clients are so happy and successful —

  • They know beyond a doubt who they are through the Pathway to Purpose mapping and Mindful change process
  • They don’t have an unrealistic expectation to be something they are not and therefore they are pressure-free and judgement-free to follow their calling, which opens up so much more space and energy for persistent & aligned action that leads to results.

 

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Understand that the best kind of business is one that is grown sustainably based on whom YOU are and who you are becoming – that’s living legacy!

 

Speed and “Now! Now! Now!” are big themes in many coaching circles which through my own personal experience can be a big factor in how easily it is to lose sight of why we choose to do what we do in the first place. While I do love and appreciate when things can more forward at the speed of lightening (& sometimes they absolutely do), I can tell you without a doubt that a successful business is a sustainable one birthed and grown into from the heart.

 

I’ve seen way too many healers, coaches and entrepreneurs crash and burn because they haven’t created strong foundations in their business by getting really clear on their BIG why and what they stand for.

If you have not yet gone through my 4 part Diamond wealth video series and workbook, you can start there – just go to www.sarahjanediamond.com, opt in and go through the 4 C’s of heart based business.

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I believe living into your JOY of business as your LIFE all starts with healing your own core woundings, your adverse childhood experiences and your beliefs around money.

 

Foundation and persistence is a HUGE part of an entrepreneur’s work, and I believe that anyone that tells you that you don’t have to work to create what you want is wrong. Now, that doesn’t mean you have to work hard, or that you have to suffer. Quite the opposite — the point is to enjoy the work knowing your core essence and your GOLD – I lead my clients back to themselves through my Pathways to Purpose 10 week foundational process, which you can learn more about in my STORE. But it does take effort and energy to create something real.

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Earning $100K but spending $80K doesn’t equal business abundance

 

There has been a trend in the coaching industry towards spending a ton of money on more and more team members, more and more un-necessary programs, more and more applications & technology, more and more bells and whistles.

 

My husband likes to call me frugal, and he’s right: I just don’t like to waste money – it’s my ancestral Irish/ Jewish inheritance!

 

I grew my multiple 6-figure business without breaking the bank, and I teach my clients to do the same. Here is a tip to get you started: You shouldn’t be spending more than 40% – 45% of your gross income (unless you are earning less than $20K and you are investing in business support). I am proud to share that I average about a 60% margin.

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Price Yourself and Invest in Yourself at rates that feel in alignment with you

 

Nothing makes me angrier than experts telling new practitioners and entrepreneurs, straight out of the gate, to charge exorbitant rates.

 

This is usually a surefire way to create disappointment, despair and frustration.

 

I’m all about charging rates that feel GOOD to you and that help you really step into your value, but jacking up prices that feel out of touch doesn’t actually do that.

 

If you want to learn more about how to price your offerings with integrity, alignment AND your value intact, book a CLARITY session now http://www.vcita.com/v/sarahjanediamond/online_scheduling?service_id=b5c4bc1f907b8cf0&staff_id=81e1a3920426f6ce.

 

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Don’t Lose Yourself

I have hired a number of coaches over the years, and have received a ton of value from them. I would not have been able to create the business I’ve created without their love and support.

At the same time, there have been many instances where coaches made suggestions that just truly didn’t resonate with me. The suggestions were perhaps the “norm” or the “formula” in the industry, but I knew in my heart that it wouldn’t serve me or my business.

 

YOU know and understand yourself and your business better than anyone else. Trust yourself before you trust any formulas.

Know that there are MANY, many amazing coaches out there

This is the most important guideline in this article. Despite some of the not-so-great things happening in the coaching industry right now, overall it is a wonderful and magical industry that has broken stereotypes and boundaries, given hope and inspiration to millions, and truly transformed the world. I believe deep down to my toes that the world is a better place thanks to the coaching industry. And I believe it will do much, much, much more good in the decades to come.

 

If you know you need support in your business and life, don’t approach coaching from a jaded perspective. Know there are so many brilliant coaches out there who can change your life. The trick is to approach it all with some of the tips and pieces of wisdom I’ve given you in this article, and above all else — trust your intuition and love yourself.

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Heartful Call to Action

If you want an entrepreneurial journey that honors ALL of who you are, and to market effectively while loving yourself deeply, then you are in the right place. Get in touch for a CLARITY to health, wealth & happiness breakthrough session (my gift to you), and we’ll go deep into finding where you can embrace yourself more fully, where you are now, what is stopping for having success and how to get you to where you want to be with heart, integrity and in your True Nature

 

Book now – the world is waiting for you, not someone “like” you.

 

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How to own the magic in your broken bits

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How to own the magic in your broken bits

I hope you’ve realized that the parts of you that you think are broken are also the parts that illuminate and shine – the magic and moon dust that makes you unstoppable and inspiring. The parts of you that feel driven to birth creations into the world and make shit happen, are the same parts that refuse to wear pants indoors, or won’t wear shoes ever like me because I need to stay connected to the Earth even when its frozen or “inappropriate” in some one else social standards!

BTW my amazing client Lee-Ann has a great solution for barefoot babes who hate rules, that truly makes my inner Goddess very happy – take a look at here beautiful foot adornments aka feetlets here  http://www.funkyfeetlets.co.za.
….because I believe your feet need to be free, or maybe you just can’t freaking STAND being told what to do even though um, sometimes you could use someone to tell you what to do.

I was writing in my morning pages today about all the ways over the past almost 5 decades used to make me think I was too broken to fix instead of celebrating that thats how the light gets in and thought it would inspire you to share your 101 plus ways you can turn your story around and inspire someone else. So here goes in the hopes you will dig deep and get to the root cause of what has kept you suffering instead of celebrating –
After all you get it when you get and it never shows up the way you think or looks the way you think it will but at the end of all the self judgement and beating yourself up over it, the botheration, the lamentation, the red, hot and holy it is simply YOUR MAGIC. Time to sprinkle it around like seed planting and proclaim to the world I have got this! Its time to be your own magic and shine .

101 plus ways I’m NOT broken can you relate to any of these?

I routinely scoff at books I know I need to read,
like The Ultimate Guide to Making Your Retirement Make Sense
or Master Your Cravings 4 Life (4 Real This Time)
or How to Adult Like You Care About Adulting.

I love salt even though it makes me weepy
and salty liquorice even though it makes me look 6 months pregnant
and Facebook even though it gives me zombie-screen-face.

I want to save the world and blow it up. (Sometimes in the same breath.)
I love people and wish at times the Earth would tip and all the stupids would slide off so the kids could run the world because they know how to have fun and
say it like it is and never let NO stop them
I don’t watch the news because it hurts to see how lost people are in fear and anger and how dying to be free is actually killing them because they don’t stop long enough to ask Is this True?
or How can I change this?
I care more about homeless animals than homeless adults.
I’m not sure my efforts to make a difference in the world make any difference,
just like I’m not sure my writing makes any sense to anyone but me
or that my life has an ultimate
deep-down-for-real-for-real purpose other than the one I give it.

I can’t extrovert for more than an hour at a time
and would take last place in the Small Talk Olympics.
“So um…yah…um…”

I’ve got a soft spot for all animals
and I love to have conversations with insects and rocks
and hug trees and howl at the moon with my huskies
and wish I could make the pain I feel for all living things
go away.

I routinely drink too much coffee and need to remember that coffee is medicine when taken as an enema literally saved my life many times.
I wear my pjs to the shops occasionally
and don’t brush my hair often because it does not like to frizz.

My I.Q. is embarrassingly high when compared with my credit score.
I believe cash is king and banks don’t like that and thats fine.

I suffer from seasonal affective disorder
and depression and abibliophobia —
the fear of running out of reading materials —
so I packed twelve books for my last trip and forgot I could
have made it easier on me and the poor guy who had to lift my case into the plane and just take my kindle.
There is something very satisfying about highlighting a paper page
even though i was told that was not very respectful to the books.

I routinely colour my whites in the wash because I forget to separate and
often have tissue all over my clothes because I don’t check my pockets before I throw them in the machine.
I would rather travel than spend money on just about anything else
with the exception of learning and giving back to great causes like animal sanctuaries, feeding schemes for feral cats and animal shelter, and Pachamama and Pencils for Change.

I am, officially, ‘obese’ on the medical terminology scale
and am better at showing people how brilliant they are and how to make money doing what they love than I am for myself.

I cried when I watched Avatar because my body knows dragons from past lifetimes and that as a human we need to wake up.

I avoid shopping malls and grocery shopping because all the entities hanging around want to have conversations and people give me the crazy look when I
stop and stare into space like a crazy person when I am actually telling them they don’t have to stay.

I still don’t know how to do contour makeup or like wearing any.
A 9 year old client told me just yesterday I should wear lipstick and that my hair is very grey.

She is right and I cannot wait to be totally grey and live into my wise crone.
The one time I tried to do eyebrow stencils I had a crooked eyebrow
and looked exceptionally skeptical all afternoon.
I have since had them tattooed by the creative genius Yvonne Taylor
I highly recommend her for all thing beautification
http://www.pinkpepper.co.za she is truly MAGIC and bringing the Goddess within out!.

I would rather live in a shoebox by the water than anywhere else
but for now I live a landlocked life and love that I can visit the bush and the elephants, lions and rhinos in a 60 minute drive.
Missing the ocean hurts every day which I ease with lots of splashing in an epsom salt bath..

I want to say I’m wise and beyond  trying to fix myself
but really, I know there is nothing to fix and the broken
bits is truly where the magic seeps in,

and so when I make extended eye contact with kids
and we break into dance at a restaurant or stuffy church service
I can call it ‘broken’ or ‘magic’
and either label will fit, depending on where I meet my other self.

When we gather and don’t talk about the weather
or exchange recipes but discuss souls and light and dark
and you show me who you are
we can call it ‘broken’ or ‘magic’
and either will be true

and when we agree that having to feed yourself three times a day,
every day,
FOR LIFE,
is really the worst,
again:

Magic.
Broken.
One and the same.

So let’s be magic, forever and ever,
which means broken, forever and ever,
and let’s enjoy the way the sunshine hits your forgotten to-do list,
the way you failed at meal planning again,
and all the other ways magic has found
to weasel its way into your existence,
today and every single day.

(But really: no shopping malls or grocery stores alone.)

For more random facts about me like you care – I share more
surprisingly imperfect things about me on my new website
www.accessurtruenature.com
and if you are wondering who made my website so incredibly
beautiful and so me and want to know how she can help you get your
message into the world
contact Nicole Barratt  at Alchemy
yup she is another magic maker
Her website http://www.studioalchemy.one,will be live soon,
we have been making magic some amazing offerings for you!

And let me know
What magic making capacities have you not been acknowledging?

Much love and gratitude

Sarah-Jane

 

Comment:

OMG I just love this … I laughed and laughed and laughed…

You are simply the best in every way possible… and one amazing person… actually most amazing person I am yet to meet..

I am truly blessed to have found you and have you as part of the most exciting journey of my life … you r the very first person ever to have made a difference and when I see already the difference I am so excited for the rest…

You are an angel from above and just know how grateful I am for you

L